this summer so far has actually been really good. it had it's ups and downs. a lot of emotional shit going on, and just a lot of adventures i suppose. i'm seriously stoked for the rest of my summer. it's going to be fantastic. don't get me wrong, my summer hasn't been all "woo, yay, summer time!" i've done things i've regretted. i've done really stupid stuff. you know when you're caught in a situation, try to get out, and get yourself lodge in deeper? 
those circumstances where you just can't let go? yeah, i tend to do that a lot. -sigh- it definitely added a lot to my summer. besides that, i found new friends, close friends, and God. i just hope i can keep up with myself sometimes.summer's not even half way done!
-kim.
i hate it when you get stuck on those writer's blocks. i just can't find what to say. how do you even beat a writer's block? by writing about it, duh. as you can see that is what i'm doing right now. i think these are one of my favorite pictures i took for 
this class so far. they're just so powerful, and i think it sums up my auto-photo-biography...? is there even such a thing? when people die, we should have a memorabilia to let us know that we existed. all of us. just because your lips spoke words, your feet made footprints, doesn't mean you existed in this world of deceit and lies. the question is now, how do i, we, stain this world with what we did? good, or bad?
i can't imagine how broadway stars and models have working eyes. seriously, these lights we were using for the photoshoot were absolutely blinding. it's ridiculous, but my pictures turned out nice. anyways, every time i went to change the lighting position, i would catch a glimpse of the bright light, which resulted in a moment of seeing stars and rapid eye blinking. you know how it is. the bright light in your face. like at the dentist. accompanied caused by the faster heartbeat by anticipation.
maybe that was an exaggeration, but, then again, not really. i suppose, i could've just decided not to look in the direction, but human are like fish. stupid. i swear it was on accident. feh! it doesn't matter, i can still see. we tried out a lot of different lighting positions to create different moods. and stuff. our models were wonderful dancers from a peer's dance class he was teaching. and it really gets you wondering how the body is capable of moving in such beautiful ways that look 
inhuman. i love examining the anatomy of bodies. especially when they look f*cking weird. i think it's so captivating and surreal. the human body is not only gross, but amazing. there are so many details and mysteries of it. perhaps that is my motive for becoming a doctor. or something in medicine. fascinating. 
my digital photography class has been really productive. although sometimes we have super boring lectures, our assignments stimulates my creativity and practically forces me to take all of these pictures. i mean, i HAVE to do it for a grade. it's a good excuse not to be lazy. plus, my teacher is a funny little asian man. he's adorable.
this assignment wasn't really specific. it was "point of view/perspective" but most people just took random pictures, as i did. i'm really happy how most of my pictures turned out. i honestly wish this class was longer.
i'm probably going to take the second level of digital photography class in the fall semster. or, well, i'm hoping. it's expensive! [granted not as expensive as a class at university, but still! i have no money!] i definitely plan to build up my portfolio though. photography is becoming my life. 
i don't know whether i should be worried or excited. i'm still debating what i want to do with my life. and that is no fun subject matter to decide. oh, the pressure on the newer generation. eh, i will live!
