this summer so far has actually been really good. it had it's ups and downs. a lot of emotional shit going on, and just a lot of adventures i suppose. i'm seriously stoked for the rest of my summer. it's going to be fantastic. don't get me wrong, my summer hasn't been all "woo, yay, summer time!" i've done things i've regretted. i've done really stupid stuff. you know when you're caught in a situation, try to get out, and get yourself lodge in deeper? 
those circumstances where you just can't let go? yeah, i tend to do that a lot. -sigh- it definitely added a lot to my summer. besides that, i found new friends, close friends, and God. i just hope i can keep up with myself sometimes.summer's not even half way done!
-kim.
i hate it when you get stuck on those writer's blocks. i just can't find what to say. how do you even beat a writer's block? by writing about it, duh. as you can see that is what i'm doing right now. i think these are one of my favorite pictures i took for 
this class so far. they're just so powerful, and i think it sums up my auto-photo-biography...? is there even such a thing? when people die, we should have a memorabilia to let us know that we existed. all of us. just because your lips spoke words, your feet made footprints, doesn't mean you existed in this world of deceit and lies. the question is now, how do i, we, stain this world with what we did? good, or bad?
i can't imagine how broadway stars and models have working eyes. seriously, these lights we were using for the photoshoot were absolutely blinding. it's ridiculous, but my pictures turned out nice. anyways, every time i went to change the lighting position, i would catch a glimpse of the bright light, which resulted in a moment of seeing stars and rapid eye blinking. you know how it is. the bright light in your face. like at the dentist. accompanied caused by the faster heartbeat by anticipation.
maybe that was an exaggeration, but, then again, not really. i suppose, i could've just decided not to look in the direction, but human are like fish. stupid. i swear it was on accident. feh! it doesn't matter, i can still see. we tried out a lot of different lighting positions to create different moods. and stuff. our models were wonderful dancers from a peer's dance class he was teaching. and it really gets you wondering how the body is capable of moving in such beautiful ways that look 
inhuman. i love examining the anatomy of bodies. especially when they look f*cking weird. i think it's so captivating and surreal. the human body is not only gross, but amazing. there are so many details and mysteries of it. perhaps that is my motive for becoming a doctor. or something in medicine. fascinating. 
my digital photography class has been really productive. although sometimes we have super boring lectures, our assignments stimulates my creativity and practically forces me to take all of these pictures. i mean, i HAVE to do it for a grade. it's a good excuse not to be lazy. plus, my teacher is a funny little asian man. he's adorable.
this assignment wasn't really specific. it was "point of view/perspective" but most people just took random pictures, as i did. i'm really happy how most of my pictures turned out. i honestly wish this class was longer.
i'm probably going to take the second level of digital photography class in the fall semster. or, well, i'm hoping. it's expensive! [granted not as expensive as a class at university, but still! i have no money!] i definitely plan to build up my portfolio though. photography is becoming my life. 
i don't know whether i should be worried or excited. i'm still debating what i want to do with my life. and that is no fun subject matter to decide. oh, the pressure on the newer generation. eh, i will live!
i was greeted by this little fur ball. his name is buddy, and he is by far one of the cutest little pomeranians in the world. despite the fact that we had to clean his poo. gross. unfortunately, he's not my friend's kayla's. she was just dog-sitting it.
i attempted to take pictures in her dim-lit, but it was near impossible without the flash to get a clear picture without a tripod or high ISO. [i hate setting it to super high ISO's] luckily, this one came out pretty nice, but with flash. i think it definitely creates a certain mood though.
now this is one i took without flash. it turned out fairly nice. it's not exactly blurry, but there was a quite a bit amount of noise, probably due to the high ISO, but it's whatever! kayla is beautiful nonetheless.
i watched new moon that day. [oh lawd, save my soul.] it was absolutely hilarious. i worry about the acting in future movies, but it was entertaining for sure. edward's face looks funnny. so does jacob's. but at least taylor laughtner has nice abs to make up for it.
it's summer now, and it's too hot to give a damn. walked around downtown trying to find optimal places to take pictures, and i think a part of me died that day. personally, i think it would look so much cooler if he had a cigarette, but i do not condone that action. talk about unhealthy and icky! 
i really have nothing to write about this day. it was a good day overall. it was the beginning of summer so that's always exciting! summer has been eventful. i've been busy, and it's probably the most productive summer i've ever had in my LIFE.
summer is great though. all i've been doing is working, taking pictures, and hanging out. quite a success already. i'm hyped for the rest. 
today i tried out my other lenses. i was kind of disappointed because i noticed that most of them were semi-blurry, but i love how all the pictures looked. my tripod would just not work with me today. it was frustrating. personally, i hate these types of plants. they're like fake flowers. maybe i'm biased, but it irks me.
i have pet chickens. they're alright little guys. they used to be so small, but now they're huge as. soon they will be able to lay eggs. therefore, our family will spend less money on eggs. in theory, we will be saving money...? yeah, let's go with that. honestly, i have no clue about what's going on in the economy. all i know is that it's crap. it's plummeting, aka we're fucked. [not completely, but still] 
quite frankly, i'm lost in politics as well. is that a bad thing? i feel so uneducated sometimes, but i really cannot pay attention to that stuff sometimes. obama? yeah he's alright...? i don't know. i prefer not to talk about that politics. i get lost. maybe i'll find the time to actually study it more in depth sometime.
hello sunshine. well, it's more like goodnight. it's pretty late, and work was not the best today. serving huge tables is not really pleasant. i hate trying to juggle all their petty needs. so the pictures i'm posting were pictures i actually took yesterday, but eh, it's something. i got new sunglasses yesterday. classy aviators, so that was nice. in addition i bought a new wallet. i wish i could've bought more crap, but i've been spending a bit too much lately, so i have to hold back.
stop rape. this was really a quick picture. i saw it while my brother was driving to saigon pho [which is a fantastic viet restaurant]. i made him stop and back up, just so i could take a picture. rape is frightening. i think sometimes we forget the severity of it. i'm reading lucky by alice sebold [author of the lovely bones]. it's an autobiography graphically describing her rape incident and the effect of it. it's so powerful in its text, it really makes you think, but i'm still not done with it.
i am sad to inform you that this moth was nearly dead when i photographed it, but i think it turned out to be a stunning picture. truth be told, i don't care for moths, so i'm sorry if you don't like the idea of dead moths. i love how it camouflages with the leaf, and the composition is just great. maybe it's just me, but i love it. i must admit, i hate moths. they're gross, icky, and nasty, as with most insects. BUT this picture. i likeee.
michael, aka piggy, has a unibrow. it's gross. it was in the picture, so i had to crop it out. i figured out that i'm allowed to drive with him. [i only have my permit -sigh-] so i made him let me drive. i'm not terrible, but i'm not good. i suck at parking. i just can't get it in between the damn lines. they suck. hopefully, you're better at driving than i am.
these pictures were a few days ago. i was helping my brother take pictures so that he can paint it for a class. we were at the wafflehouse, and it was definitely awkward taking pictures. i did order a chef's salad, which turned out to taste pretty bad. i ate it anyways. i'm a hungry teen, what can i do? i didn't eat the egg. i'm not too fond of sunny side eggs. i'd eat it, of course. but i'd eat anything. i guess you could consider it a healthy habit to a certain extent. 
i can't pinpoint the mood for this picture. mark, my brother, wanted to portray a sort of negligence in an apathetic. like as if i was waiting for someone, but he/she didn't come. it's as if he's communing the message of giving up. or at least that was how i intepreted it from. sometimes, i feel as if i'm in that position. just waiting and waiting, giving up on the idealistic dreams, but still helplessly optimistic that something will turn around.
now, i'm out and about on a tangent, but hey, i have nothing to do. [except for that mountainous pile of homework, but that's besides the point] ... what you read these pictures to be, is your point of view. there is no right answer, it's up for grabs.